Hello- brief intro

[mickyspill]

Hi all,

I joined this site about a week ago ago and have been porn free since then but am already realizing that it will be an ongoing struggle. I have become increasingly involved with online porn over the last several years and recognize an alarming progression and change in my attitude and behavior. I falsely told myself that I was in control because I wasn't paying for any of it but now know that that just made the compulsion easier to develop.

I most recently have been engaging in online chat under a disguised identity and am worried that I was headed toward expanding into even riskier behavior. I am so happy that I found this site because I know that my chat behavior was a sign that I am craving real social contact. I hope that I can make this a positive and supportive alternative to the risky and false relationships I was creating via porn sites. It has already helped me today as I am making this post to deal with current cravings.

I already experienced some of that support from JenMac who was kind enough to chat with me last Thursday while I anxiously waited for an opportunity to make my first post here. I can see why she was selected MOTY. Her willingness to chat with me at that time got me over the hump and helped me keep my resolve. Thank you, JenMac.

Well, that's my rather long-winded intro. I need to attend to some of my life responsibilities right now but plan to be back soon.

Yours in the struggle,
Micky

[IN NEED OF HELP]

mickyspill

Welcome to your new family at TTF

I am so glad that you was able to talk to Jenmac. She is a wonderful woman, and is always willing to help ANYONE that need help.

It is good to see that you have been free from this since you found this site. But I will not lie to you, that you do have a long road ahead of you. Yes we are here to help you in any way that we can, but you will need to be the one to help YOURSELF.

How you work your recovery, determines how far you can get in this recovery. I would suggest that now you find yourself a good recovery plan that will work for you. We can help you in this, or you can read other journals to see hat others are doing to help them to rid themselves from this addiction. But your plan, needs to be one that fits your situation in your addiction. It need to be Taylor made to fit your needs.

Once you have this plan in place, and you stick with it, there is no reason to why you cant beat this thing, and free yourself from it for good. This is why I say that it is up to you in how far you can go in your recovery. If you do not work your plan, mark my words, you will fail in any attempt to do this.

So I encourage you to NOW, find the tools, weapons that you need to fight this addiction, and be free from it forever.

In you fight against this addiction, never under estimate the power if it. It it strong, and very powerful, and will try to attack you at anytime it feels it can get to you. So fight this thing even harder than it is fighting, and I assure you, that in time, you will be a winner, because you will beat this addiction and get rid of it for good.
I do wish you the best in this fight. we are here for you, so you will not be alone.

[JenMac]

Welcome Micky! I am glad you made it!!!
Thank you for the kind words Micky but as you can see already, there are many kind and helpful people here at TTF! I know you will gain much from being here!
Micky, I am encouraged in that you have realized some of what this addiction is doing to you on your own! I think that is a really positive thing! There are many here who that was not the case for, so you have already taken the first steps towards recovery. Awareness, Acceptance, Action. You are now at the Action phase. And here you are!!
Yes Micky, it may be a difficult journey but one that can be done with the right tools and mindset. Listen and learn Micky! There is much wisdom here amongst those who have experienced what you are and they are more than willing to share that with you!
I encourage you to start a journal in the recovering journal thread!
All the best to you!
Many here have adopted the Relapse is not an Option mantra. It was coined by Artguy, long time member who has had great success in his journey! Others have found it to be very successful as well!
Let the healing begin Micky!
Glad you are here!
Jenn

[HopefulsRock]

Micky... welcome to TTF and congratulations on making the first step in your journey of beating this! You might not like hearing this but it is an addiction but one that's beatable for sure and you've joined an excellent team here at TTF to help you along. Jen pointed you to starting your own journal and you'll find that letting go of your emotions is in there is hard but very rewarding in the end... excellent advice from our resident MOTY!

I wish you strength in your journey...

[Mac]

Hey There Mickey

I would also like to welcome you to TTF.
Through time here you will come to understand what a great support all the loving people of TTF will be for you.
The resourses you will find here are limitless.
Grab onto all you can.

I wish you the best in this journey

Mac

[RobP413]

Welcome, Mick. No better place to be than right here. Thank the Lord that you have found the motivation to take a different path. We will all be here to walk this journey together!

Take care,
Rob