Hello Everybody

[HopeandDespair]

I've been addicted to porn for the past 8 years. I'm not 24 and desperate to escape. There are many reasons for why I want to quit, some of which include:
- Low self-esteem
- Guilt and shame
- It consume way too much of my time
- It has caused serious issues in my relationship
- It cuts me off from the sunlight of the spirit
- I've become so dependent upon porn and masturbation that I suffer from delayed/retarded ejaculation (nobody other than myself has ever been able to make me ejaculate)
- I want to experience freedom and to breathe without that tightness in my chest that comes from feeling guilty
- there are a bunch more reasons but those are few

Anyway, I hope to find support here. I have tried quitting on my own a million times and have always failed. I've always been to embarassed to approach a doctor or a 12 step group in person about this affliction. I hope that I can find the support I desperately need here, and that I can maintain my anonymity. I just do not know what else to do. . . I've never reached out like this before.

[samski]

Glad you've come here. I think that you will find some great resources to help you get healing and wholeness in your life.

I would recommend a 12 step program as well. I started one a couple of months ago and found it to be very helpful. Walking into the first meeting is the toughest. But they're full of people just like you.

Please go to sa.org, and look for a support group in your area. You won't regret it. I didn't.

[kanzi]

Hello HopeandDespair

I am glad you found this site and i hope it is going to help you find your way in life. I am in no way an expert but you gave me the idea of writing down all the bad sides of P addiction and keep it as a little reminder to discourage when the need comes up. Anyway, this site, as mentioned, has excellent resources have a look around.

Greetings,

Kanzi

[presson]

I've been addicted to porn for the past 8 years. I'm not 24 and desperate to escape. There are many reasons for why I want to quit, some of which include:
- Low self-esteem
- Guilt and shame
- It consume way too much of my time
- It has caused serious issues in my relationship
- It cuts me off from the sunlight of the spirit
- I've become so dependent upon porn and masturbation that I suffer from delayed/retarded ejaculation (nobody other than myself has ever been able to make me ejaculate)
- I want to experience freedom and to breathe without that tightness in my chest that comes from feeling guilty
- there are a bunch more reasons but those are few

Anyway, I hope to find support here. I have tried quitting on my own a million times and have always failed. I've always been to embarassed to approach a doctor or a 12 step group in person about this affliction. I hope that I can find the support I desperately need here, and that I can maintain my anonymity. I just do not know what else to do. . . I've never reached out like this before.

It is awfully peculiar how many people are in this position, yet somehow comforting; because every post I read confirms that I am not as crazy or alone as I thought I was. It does however support just how unnatural and ridiculous this addiction is.

I can echo you on most of these ailments and especially on your frustration. I can also tell you that we are in a much, much better position having found this site than we were a month ago. Here's to getting busy livin' :-bd