Long road ahead

[mn63]

I feel sort of silly writing this but I have to do something. I've been using P and MB since my teens and I'm pushing 50 now. Been through all the forms, movies, magazines, internet, etc. My wife has put up with it for years but has finally had enough. I always tried to hide it, she would catch me and I would always promise to change but of course I never did for any length of time. She even said it was OK if I looked at P if I didn't try to hide it. But since MB was always part of the deal I would hide it anyway. She has decided to move out for awhile but still wants to work things out. Says that if she stays here it will be like it's all OK and the cycle will just start over again. I can't explain to her that it's not her fault and it's not an either/or choice (her or P). Anyway I'm glad I found this site and I've been sober for 6 days now. I have found a SA group that I'm going to try. I know I have a difficult ride but I've put on my seat belt and I'm ready to go! Thanks for reading this and I look forward to reading other people's experiences.

[JenMac]

Welcome mn63!
I know you will find great support and wisdom here at TTF. There are many of us here who know what you and you wife are going through as we have walked the same path.
My H, Mac and I are about your age and we have been here at TTF for almost a year now. We have found TTF to be a true blessing to us over this time. We have learned so much along the way and have come to count on our friends here as well.
mn, I encourage you to tell your wife about this site as she could use support and friendship during this time as well. I also encourage you to start a journal in the recovering journal thread.
And let the healing begin!
All the best!
Jenn

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Hello and Welcome to TTF
I am sorry that you are here, but I am glad that you are here for the help that you need in fighting this addiction
This addiction is a very sneaky, addiction, and it wants nothing more than to destroy you and anything else around you, that you love in your life. Please never under estimate the power of this addiction in any way. No matter where you are, it is right there by your side, waiting to attack you when it sees a weak point in your life. If you do not do what you can at this very moment, it will take full control of you and your life, if it hasn’t already done so.

If you are to overcome this addiction, there are many changes that need to be made. And theses changes are not all that hard to make, and besides, if you make them, you will only live a much better life.

If you have any secret stash on your computer, you must delete them now. Tomorrow, in the next couple of day, is not good enough, they need to be gone. If you don’t get rid of them right away, believe me, you will turn to them when you get any urges.

If you do not have an internet filter installed on your computer, this is very important to have one. May here use K9, and it is free, and it works very good. You need this so you have no way of clicking to one of your many favorite sites.

Learn what your trigger may be, and learn how you are going to handle them when they come around, because there will be many. So now is the time to have a plan, on how you will control any triggers, and urges that come your way.

Have a recovery plan laid out in your life, so you can get through this addiction. This plan is one that only you know what it is. I say this, because only you know what it is that you need to fight this addiction. Once you have a plan, work it. If you see it is not working, change it. Keep doing this until you get it right.

No one here can even try to cure you from this. All we can do is support you, and give you so much encouragement.

Find your weapons now that you are going to use against this monster. Work you plan, and work it to death, because he is going to do all he can to make you fail in this recovery.

When I say do not under estimate him, I do know what I am talking about. He will come around, and come around often, if he sees that you are getting too comfortable in your recovery. Now is when you need to show him just who is in charge of YOU. He has controlled you long enough.

Do not allow him to destroy you any more than he already has my friend. I am 54 years old, and he just destroyed every I have worked so hard for in my life. I am losing the most beautiful woman I have ever been with.

I wish you the very best in your recovery. Please keep coming back and let us know about your struggles, so we can help you

Good luck to you, and God bless you and your family during this recovery

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Anyway I'm glad I found this site and I've been sober for 6 days now. I have found a SA group that I'm going to try. I know I have a difficult ride but I've put on my seat belt and I'm ready to go! Thanks for reading this and I look forward to reading other people's experiences.

=D>On the SAA Meeting. They have proven to be the best thing that I have done in my recovery.

And =D> on 6 days, this is a great start