Hello I am an internet porn addict

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Allright, since all the advice I have was to delete my stash I did it.

I went to my backup hard drive and uninstalled all photos and movies. I also logged onto the cam site, deleted three accounts and paid remaining cash to some of the models.

I am pretty sure that is it.

When I have some time later today I will look through my CDs to see if there are any photo CDs I burned.

- pete

I am glad that you did this my friend. I wont lie to you my friend, if I still had any stash around, I would use it at any weak point in my life. I am going to be 55 in a few months, and I have been using different forms of Porn since I was around 12 years old. done many thins in my life that just feed my addiction, and got me to where I am today. Now I am trying to change me, and try to find out who I really am. They say, you cant teach a old dog new tricks, well thats bull shit. because I am teaching this old dog that I can have a better life.
I hope for the best with you my friend. keep coming back. we are always here for you

[presson]

I will not delete my stash of movies and images and stories, yet. I will not go near them for now and I will delete them when I have a few days or a week of recovery.

People tend to be 'collectors' and have a kind of compulsion to acquire. I do this with documentary series, and shows I like. One minor problem I had with giving up porn was the deletion of 'the stash'. Somewhere in the back of my mind I feel I would not be able to reacquire the porn. Which should not be such a problem if you and I are seriously ready to give it up right?

Of course we fear that frantic, lust-fueled race to restock our digital collections mere hours after deletion - and with good reason! That process of view, delete, repeat seems to be what is taking up the bulk of our free time. I once allowed myself to collect all the scenes I wanted and then stored them away somewhere, and would not look at them thinking that would take care of this problem all together. This didn't work for me because just knowing it was there affected the way I lived my life. Even in conversations with strangers, arbitrary as store clerks, its' presence sneaked into the forefront of my mind.

I love the feeling of that weight and self contempt falling away as I click my mouse over the secure-delete button for good and for all. Of course it is easy for me to say that, when I only just hours ago unloaded my own collection. But it led me to this site...that and standing out in the breeze under that rare moon. That thing was huge! Somehow, being outdoors redirects my attention to all the things beyond my stuffy room that I really want, and how little those sexy 1's and 0's really mean to me.

Great job deleting your stash Pete, stay committed to your freedom, and leave that dusty, buzzing, box in the dark...except to you know, pay bills and update your status.