New Member, Seeking Peace

[ScottM]

I am so happy to have found TTF! Amidst all the other unhealthy stuff on the web, this site is a wonderful beacon of hope. I am so tired of wasting the gift of my life on lousy p. I have so much to be thankful for, yet I am afraid that I will lose everything, including my health, if I continue my compulsive use of p. What may have begun as been a means to sooth my youthful anxiety has now become malicious program that runs automatically in the background of my consciousness, activating itself to solely to sooth its own anxiety caused by not being activated for a few hours. I want my life back and I want to stop being an absentee father, husband and employee. Been sober since 2:00 pm.shipwrckd

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Scott
Welcome to TTF. I am so happy that you have come here for your much needed Encouragement and Support.
We are here to help you the best way that we can. No one can cure you in any way here, but we can help. It is you that need to see what it is in your life that you need to change. No will power will let you overcome this addiction. You will need to put together a good recovery plan, and work with it. If you see that it is not working for you, change what you need to change in it. You can beat this addiction, but please know that, this road we are traveling on, is not smooth at all. It is filled with so many bumps and pot hole alone this path. In time, this road can get smoother for you.

In order to get at least a good start on your recovery, depends on how bad you want this crap from your life. This recovery really needs to be in your heart 100% if it is to work for you. we have to want this recovery. we cant beat it if we are doing this to please someone else. If we are not willing to make many changes, it will not work for us.In order to fight this and beat it, changes must be made. we need to do all we can to keep us from getting to porn in our lives. If there are still anything on your computer that can trigger you, delete it now from your hard drive. your computer must be free of everything that can work against you in your recovery

This addiction, is not like any other. it is tough to beat. no matter where we go in life, there can be something that can act as a trigger, to allow us to give in, and look at our old stuff. I am not trying to scare you my friend, but IM not going to sugar coat this either. I just want to see you beat this addiction, and become free from it. Only you know what you need to change in your life. If you already have a recovery plan in your heart, that you want to start, then start it now. change it if it is not working for you.

I encourage you to start a journal of your own, and write in it as much as you can. by doing so, we can see how your recovery is going, and be able to help you when we can. Also, read through other journals, and see what they have gone through, and what they did to make there road a little smoother to be on.

You are not here alone scott. you are in a little family that will be here for you, and support you in any way that we can

Good luck to you in your recovery