Hello again

[AJP2008]

Hi there, AJP2008 here. I'm back on the wagon after trying to rid myself of the internet porn addiction that I've been trying to quit since 2004. My last logon was not for several months/years can't remember how long. I thought I was past it, then I went onto the internet for porn again and I was hooked again. After making my wife cry on Sunday for being on the internet for too many hours, I realised that it was time to make an honest start.

I've invested in Cybersitter and its active on my browsers right now. My longest time without over the last year or so has been 1 month, Sunday was my first day on after that month, and afterward I felt guilty and ashamed. It wasn't until the other day that I realised that I had also lost some confidence in myself and realised how good it had been without the porn for those days during that month. On Sunday morning I rationalised that it was OK, doesn't hurt anyone, so I went on twice and after the second time I realksied I was neglecting my wife and came off. on Sunday night I bought Cybersitter. Only problem is that my ipad is not protected, any thoughts.

Anyway I'm here for the long stretch.

See you soon.#:-s

[Phil413]

Only problem is that my ipad is not protected, any thoughts.

Does your iPad access the net through 3G, or only WiFi?

Phil

[likeafish34]

Welcome AJP2008 .

I've found TTF a great help in dealing with my addiction.

Keep coming back, keep reading other members' posts, keep posting and keep clean.

Simon

[AJP2008]

My ipad accesses, the internet by a wifi point in my flat. Don't know if a solution exists but its worth pursuing if I can stay clean.

[AJP2008]

Yes I will, I've also got a little diary that I'm ticking days with and writing a little something if necessary. Thanks for your words.

[JenMac]

Hi AJP!
Welcome to TTF!
I am glad that you are here! You will find much in the way of support here from the many who struggle with the same things as you do.
The filter is a great idea, and TTF is an awesome support group!
I invite you to start a journal in the recovering journal thread. It is somewhat therapeutic to write down your thoughts and feelings. There is a certain power to it and it is wonderful when we receive input from others who know just how we are feeling.
I am an SO here, along with my H Mac, and we have been here for about 10 months. TTF has been a lifeline for us as we have worked through this intrusion in our lives. We have worked our way through the trauma and are experiencing a reconnection that I would not have thought possible. I would suggest to you that your wife could benefit from TTF as well. There are many SOs here who would welcome and offer support to her at this time. Believe me, she will need to have someone to share this with as she will be feeling very alone. I can't tell you how difficult those feelings are!
Wishing you all the best as you begin your recovery APG! There are in fact 3 recoveries to consider here, yours, your wife's and your relationship's. Hoping for the best for all 3 of them! It is a lot of hard work but so very worth it!
All the best!
Jenn

[Phil413]

My ipad accesses, the internet by a wifi point in my flat. Don't know if a solution exists but its worth pursuing if I can stay clean.

Excellent. Get yourself a wireless router that has parental control capability. A lot of Netgear routers have that feature. You control the router through an online OpenDNS account. All you have to do is establish a password you can't remember (a long string of numbers and letters), configure the router to block what you want to block, and then your iPad (and any other device that gets Internet through the WiFi) will be filtered.

Phil

[AJP2008]

Thanks Phil for the help, that's a great idea.

[Phil413]

Thanks Phil for the help, that's a great idea.

You're welcome. I hope it works well for you.

Phil

[AJP2008]

Saturdays and Sunday's are always hard for me, too many times when free time sneaks in and I want to venture onto the Internet for porn. It went ok, still a little guilty after last Sunday so this weekend will be easy. It's the times after that I'm not looking for to.