Happy To Be Here

[Zachary]

Hello everyone. I'm glad to be a member of this community. My name is Zachary, I'm 28 years old, have a wonderful SO and I am a recovering P addict. It feels good to be able to finally say that. I have not viewed P in just over one year, however my usage was very heavy before this. I was using quite frequently when I met my SO, and when she found out, it hurt her greatly. When I finally was able to stop using P, I found that it had done more damage than I originally thought possible. My entire outlook on people and society had been warped. My saintly SO has worked with me tirelessly to help me overcome my problems, and now it is time I take some of the burden off of her, and start to help myself. I'm looking forward to learning from everyone here and turning myself into the kind of person I want to be and my SO deserves.

[Timertin]

Hello and welcome, I am new here too. This site is great, your SO can join too, I get to read how different SO's feel, how they delt with certain things, just listening to their pain and then identifing with how my SO has felt, then really feeling the pain and releasing those toxic tears has helped me grow in the sense of understanding and humilty of what I really do when I steal a moment from our relationship with PA. I am very new and did not do well yesterday, but I put the K9 filter on my computer today and my SO put the password in, so hopefully I won't "go back out" again. Glad your here and I would love to hear what you have learned in your one year of being PA free. They have a journel place here too (in case you didnot see that).

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Zachary
I am very pleased to see that you have been clean for so long. so you know by now, that there are always struggles that we face in this addiction. So I am glad that you are here my friend, to continue in this recovery. you are here, with so many that have been where you have been, and can help you to stay clean from this.

We help each other here. no one can ever do this with the support from someone else. P lease start a journal here. we would love to see what you have been doing, to stay clean. just by you being here, we are already encouraged by you. so please let us learn from you, so we all can be free from this.

I hope to see you back here soon. Take care.

[likeafish34]

Hi Zachary. Welcome to TTF.

You've certainly been P free for a long time. I've been P free for 19 days and I'm quite pleased with myself. I wonder what it will be like when I've been P free for a whole year.

My attitudes have changed loads in 19 days and the longer I go the less likely it feels that I'll relapse.

How do you feel? Do you still get strong urges to use P or has that died down?

Simon

[Zachary]

Thank you all for your welcomes. It has been an arduous year since quitting P usage. Not so much temptations to use again (for me, at least) but going through withdrawal symptoms, mood swings, depression, anger and realizing just what P does to your outlook on the world, how you view people and trying to get back to viewing everyone as a complete human being, rather than a 'rating', so to speak. The challenges, again for me at least, now lie in curbing a wandering eye I've seemed to develop in lieu of my P use, which is every bit as saddening and frustrating. I would never cheat on my SO in any way, but P warps you to your very core. I would be happy to support anyone out there trying to quit, and would gladly accept any support in return in this stage of my struggle. Thank you all again for welcoming me here.