HI

[Timertin]

Love is the most powerful possibility on this earth, that it is sacred truth, that it is developed through the mind, heart and soul, body without. I believe Sex is the greatest confuter of Love because it wraps the body into the equation it does not belong. It is a physical characteristic, an animalistic emotion which releases only momentarily false messages of serenity and peace. The passion of love is infinite and intangible. I believe its purpose is to care, bring about compassion and hope for those who struggle forms of loneliness and selfishness. It is the shield to jealousy, vengeance and hate. It is the under stander of loss and the healer of all inadequateness, it is the blessed road to fulfillment and self worth, the creator of the bridges that demonstrate our gifts enabling humanities equalities to be recognized. Every human being has the right to love, be loved.
I wrote this poem a few years ago, while fresh in recovery from another affliction. Still sober, still bringing the message, but I feel empty sometimes, fake. I am not well and I am tired of waking up with an emotional hang over, from looking a P at night. I want to be the guy that wrote that poem again. I am so happy I ran into this site, it has helped me get by today. Thank you

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Timertin
First, Let me say welcome to TTF.
Thank You for the Poem, It was beautiful, and from your Heart. But now you are saying, that you want to be that Man again, who wrote this Poem. Well my friend, you are on your way of becoming that man again.
I am glad that you decided to come here. Here at TTF, We can not cure you, But all of us here can give you the Encouragement, and Support that you need to be THAT MAN once again. But if you are to really what this addiction gone from your life, You are going to need to make many changes in your life. You are on a long road, with many bumps and potholes on it, but you can make this road smoother if you make your recovery plan work for you. Also, if you are to beat this things, It must be in your heart to do so. We can not do this for anyone else to just make them happy. We need to do this for US.

Now that you have decided to do this recovery, and be free from all the heartache that come from porn, you need to start making those changes right away. you need to do a lot of soul searching and try to figure out what it is that makes you act out. And once you see what theses things are, you need to take these things and no longer use them in your life. At this time, try to find the best weapons to use on this beast, and get ready for a fight. he does not back done, he will be right there, hoping for a weak moment in your life, to pounce on you. So get your feet firmly on the ground, and fight this beast, and beat his ass.

You may have a lot of struggles that you may face. But that is why we are here. we can see what is going on in your recovery, and just try to help you through it. I can tell that you have a good Heart, so I think you will be ok. But please, keep your fight up with this beast. he is strong, and very cleaver

Please start your own journal here, so we can read it. Post in it, your problems, and struggles.
I will be checking in on you to see how you are doing

Good luck to you . Remember,You are not alone

[CurseTheBeast]

Welcome my friend. Beautiful words, and as I read, I was think wow how could someone in the typical state of mind that brings them write anything that wonderful.

Stand firm and continue to Curse The Beast.

[Timertin]

I know I can't even watch tv alone, if I don't wanted to be tempted, the magazins my partner puts in the bath room, and I don't want to tell her about my struggles, I told her a long time ago they were over. I noticed on the chat, you said "time" had put a link to a trigger, I didn't mean to if I did, I don't hardly know how to operate this site yet, I hope I didn't do that. I noticed certain words are used with initials, so maybe it was one word I used, the confusser of love? I will start journeling soon, I know this will work if I listen to what you guys say to do. Thank you

[JenMac]

Hi Timertin!
Just wanted to jump in and welcome you to TTF and to reassure you that it wasn't you who had posted anything triggering. It was someone who had a similar name to you! So not to worry!
I hope you find the support you are looking for here at TTF. This is a wonderful site with lots of great support and encouragement!
Keep coming back!
Jenn

[Timertin]

thank you curse the beast, I love this site, I have read a couple of your supportive posts, I have read a bit, all of it is real. . .kind of hard to hear the truth but it also gives me the advice to deal with it. How long until I am cured? kidding, I know it is like my alcoholism, it is just another false solution, quick fix that never satisfies. If I don't address and recognise it everyday, it will get me won't it curse the beast? do you know anyone that "graduated" from this program? I don't want to know the answer do I

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Timertin
I am glad you came to post. I just want to say this. this recovery, is a tough one my friend. and what you told Cures, about it is hard to hear the truth, well you are right, it is hard. But if we do not hear the truth, about our addiction, and what it has done to us, we will never be able to recover from it. We have never heard the truths in our addiction, all we heard was lies. And thats how this monster operates. He dosent want you to know the truth about it, because he wants to be with you forever, destroying you more and more each passing day. But as you hear the truth, you then see that you need to change. when we see what the damage, and the pain that we cause, by our addiction, our heart kicks in, and motivates us to want to clean our lives up. And I am happy that you are trying to do just that.

What sucks, We are never cured from this addiction. it is with us for the rest of our lives. But though we are never cured, we will be ok. We will be able to go many days, Months, and Years without acting out. We may go the rest of our life in not actin out, but that doesn't mean we are cured. All we need to do, for the rest of our life, is to always be on guard, be on guard from this monster, because he will try to attack us at any weak time we have in our life.

I just want to see you beat this my friend. It is a wonderful feeling to know, that none of us addicts here, are alone.We are a family that are just trying to help each other get through this crap. We will all do this together

[Timertin]

I just read something else from you, "in need of help". thank you. I guess I always knew this is forever like my other addictions, the monster didn't want me to say it. That just one more time won't hurt, thing, ummm. Nice quotes too, yes, appreciate your time.

[want2bebetter]

Welcome to TTF, poet!!!!!