First Post - Hi Everyone

[needtoheal]

Hi

Not sure where to start. I am early 30s male, wife, children, happy at work and home. My wife and I have an active and very fulfilling and satisfying sex life. But I am addicted to watching porn. My wife hates it, it hurts her and makes her feel worthless but I am struggling to stop. I'll give you some background in my journal.

I have tried stopping on my own before but I can't. My wife has laways been supportive and told me I can talk to her about it but I just can't. I feel ashamed and hate myself. Then i think of how I make her feel by watching porn and it gets worse (i hate self pity so it becomes a vicious circle).

I need help to stop as I don't even know where to begin, I hope I can find that help here.

Thanks

Needtoheal

[mell]

needtoheal,

Hello and welcome to TTF.

Admitting you have a problem is the first step to recovery. P is everywhere. I would suggest you read the articles here and read some of the journals. There are also many SOs here, if your wife is interested, she is welcome to join also.

You will find a lot of support here. Keep coming back and keep posting. You can get through this.

Best wishes.

[IN NEED OF HELP]

needtoheal

Welcome to TTF
This is the first step in getting help, by being here. you are here with so many that have this problem. I n order to rid ourself from this, we need to make many changes in our life. It is a long road we are on, and it is full of bumps and potholes. But if you the determination to fix YOU, then the road can get smoother over time.

We need to aware, that this addiction is everywhere. it is always around us, so we are to be on guard 24 hours a day. You now need to look at yourself, and try to see what it is that can trigger you, make you want to go to porn. And when you find out what they are, cut those thing out of your life right away.

Get yourself a good recovery plan down that you know will work for you. And work this plan, and never get relaxed in it. We need to remember, that this beast that we are fighting, is just kicking back, waiting for the best time to pounce on us, and attack us with all that he has

I encourage you to start this battle now. Pick up the weapons you are going to use, and get ready for a fight. This beast does not like to back down.

You are not here alone, there are many who will help you
Good luck to you

[Winston811]

Hi needtoheal,

Welcome to TTF. I know its really hard to be here, but i can assure you this site can be a huge help if you want it to be. You really have taken the first step to recovery by admitting/ realising you have a problem, and by having the courage to do something about it.

Its great that your SO wants to support you, thats something that can really make this thing a bit easier to beat.

Have you tried internet blocker software? Its something that has helped me alot. My SO is the one who set it up for me (after I asked her to), so I dont have the password. It was great that she did this as it helps her feel as if I`m really trying, and that I`m wanting to change, which in turn gives her hope and me strength.

I really hope you beat this thing and I look forward to reading more of your posts.

Winston