really need to restart

[1moretry54]

hi everyone im new here if you didn't figure that out already.
I live a complete double life that i never wanted to live sense i was young i've been addicted to p and mb. i have always wanted to stop. at least 2 times a week i would tell my self "thats it i'm done" but shortly there after i'd be in the same position. no one in my life would EVER think i'm addicted to p and mb. more importantly no one would understand how hard it is to get past it. i mean i used to smoke and quitting that was child's play compared to this

all the long time members that have gotten through this and even those still trying not only are you guys brave but your my heros. and i really mean that i hope i get to the point where i can get over this and i want all that glory to go to God if and when i do

Thanks guys, God bless

[Phil413]

Welcome, 1moretry!

at least 2 times a week i would tell my self "thats it i'm done" but shortly there after i'd be in the same position.

Yeah, it's always the last time, isn't it? For some stupid reason I often convinced myself that if I just did it one more time I'd finally get it out of my system. Of course, all that really did was drive it deeper into my system.

all the long time members that have gotten through this and even those still trying not only are you guys brave but your my heros. and i really mean that i hope i get to the point where i can get over this and i want all that glory to go to God if and when i do

Amen to that. So, what's your strategy for putting this behind you?

Phil

[IN NEED OF HELP]

1moretry54
First off, I would like to welcome you to TTF
Though I am sad that you need to be here, I am also glad that you are. You have come here to get help that you need with Porn. This is a great first step that you made. By being here, others can help you the best that they can.. No one here can cure you in any way. It is up to you, to see where you need to change, and try to find out the best way to rid yourself from this Monster. But all of us here, can give you as much Encouragement, and Support that we can.

You said:
I live a complete double life that i never wanted to live sense i was young i've been addicted to p and mb. i have always wanted to stop. at least 2 times a week i would tell my self "thats it i'm done" but shortly there after i'd be in the same position. no one in my life would EVER think i'm addicted to p and mb. more importantly no one would understand how hard it is to get past it. i mean i used to smoke and quitting that was child's play compared to this


Everyone that has this addiction, lives a double life. we all try to hide the fact that we look at porn, because we dont want our families to think that we are sick, or even perverted.
So many of us here also said, thats it, I am quitting, Just to have us doing it all over again after just a few days. We have all tried to quit, but we always failed in doing so. This is a truly hard addiction to get over, and you are right when you say. That no one understands just how hard it is to quit. But let me say this to you right now. YOU CAN BEAT THIS THING, YOU REALLY CAN

No matter how many times you try to quit, you will end up failing, Unless you have a game plan in front of you. This is why it is very important for you at this minute, to look at your life, and see what it is that YOU need to do, to fight this monster, and come out a winner.
You are going to need to make so many changes in your life. We need to be careful on what we look at on the computer, the TV , or what magazine we read. We need to see what triggers us to want to act out, and give in to viewing P. No matter what we do in life, or where we go, we will always come across something that can trigger us, set us off, to give in to Porn.
So the one thing that we need to do, and I am telling you that this is the most important thing to do, Is that we really need to gard our heart against this addiction. If you gard your Heart, and it is in your Heart to beat this monster, then there is no reason to why you cant do just that. You can win this battle.

I encourage you to please, put on you armor to protect yourself from this monster, and get ready to fight him. This is a One Day at a time fight. But please NEVER put your gard down, Because he is just waiting for the right time to come and attack you.

I wish you the best in your recovery. Good luck to you

[1moretry54]

wow guys thanks so much im so glad i found a place where people understand me and support me

i installed K-9 on my mac and just became part of the 100 day goal as you already know phil. i've started working out a lot in the day so when night roles around im to tired to think about mb never mind do it. also i have almost everything scheduled in my life so i have no free time to think about p or mb
so thats my plan

thanks guys

[Phil413]

Sounds like you're off to a great start!

Phil

[Teemo]

1moretry54,

The "double life" is just a mess, isn't it? It sounds like you are here because you can't stand living the way we have to when we have such a huge part of our life to hide. Well, whatever it takes to finally get us here! I am three weeks into this journey. I can tell you that it is not easy. But if we put the right plan in place, with all the right changes, and all the right support, it can be done. I'm certainly not there yet, but I am following a path that others have traveled. There is no question about it - recovery is possible. I don't believe that God wants me to live the rest of my life trapped in this addiction.

Teemo

[1moretry54]

thanks teemo you right it is a mess im almost always worrying atd im sick of it i wanna live my life
thank you again

[IN NEED OF HELP]

1moretry54
I just wanted to stop by and say Hello. I hope all is going good for you my friend.

[dave42]

Go, OneMoreTry!!!

[rouby]

1moretry,

I, like everyone else here, can really relate to all that you wrote.

I have been here almost a month. I think the most important thing that I have recieved is encouragement and support. I believe that has propelled me to my greatest success in years.

Yes, it is vital to have a plan, and at this stage that plan is mostly how to plug up holes to gain easy access to P. However, with that said, the support you will get here from TTF is the foundation.

I will see you around on the 100 day thread.