The time is now

[Winston811]

On Sunday I put my SO through another reason not too trust me. I really cant stand hurting her, and myself with this behaviour anymore. I have had a strange and very painful moment of clarity, where I know I can no longer carry on with this behaviour.

I have been PA for about 12 years now. The choices I have made have led me to a situation where they seem to not be choices anymore. My SO has been so amazing, so understanding of the situation, although I know she is really really hurting.

I have always thought that with enough simple will power I will be able to overcome this thing. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt. One thing is for sure though, it never lasts. I now know that I cant do this by simply wanting it, I have to act on it, set myself a plan, talk to people who will encourage me, and actually do more that wishing it away.

I have been trawling through this site for the last few days, and I really think I have found a place, and a group of people that can help me carry the strength I currently feel to finally beat this thing.

Its been too long and too damaging and its now time to make a change.

I know it will be hard, and I know it will be long, but I`m now ready.

Thanks,

W

[Yechezkel]

On Sunday I put my SO through another reason not too trust me. I really cant stand hurting her, and myself with this behaviour anymore. I have had a strange and very painful moment of clarity, where I know I can no longer carry on with this behaviour.

I have been PA for about 12 years now. The choices I have made have led me to a situation where they seem to not be choices anymore. My SO has been so amazing, so understanding of the situation, although I know she is really really hurting.

I have always thought that with enough simple will power I will be able to overcome this thing. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt. One thing is for sure though, it never lasts. I now know that I cant do this by simply wanting it, I have to act on it, set myself a plan, talk to people who will encourage me, and actually do more that wishing it away.

I have been trawling through this site for the last few days, and I really think I have found a place, and a group of people that can help me carry the strength I currently feel to finally beat this thing.

Its been too long and too damaging and its now time to make a change.

I know it will be hard, and I know it will be long, but I`m now ready.

Thanks,

W

Winston, welcome to TTF!!!

This is an amazing place full of supportive people, I know you will find many friends here, I wish you the best in your recovery, if you mess up as all of us do sometimes, dont feel ashamed to come here and tell us, we all grow together.

Never give up!


Yechezkel.

[chasman62]

Winston:

Welcome to TTF. Read all you can on here, check people's journals, see how it is possible through discipline and dedication to rebuild your life and your relationship. When you are ready start your own journal. It is a very rewarding experience. Invite your SO to join TTF as well, that was a hugely important step for my wife and she has met several good friends through this website.

We have all been where you are now. In my case that was almost 6 months ago. I feel better now than I ever have, my marriage is strong, and I love my life. You can be there too. I WILL NEVER go back to where I was before. Believe that and it can happen.

Consider adopting the mantra that I did when I joined here in August of last year....it is in my signature line and it really does have power in just those few short words. If you really have bottomed out and want to change your life then relapse is NOT an option!

All the best to you.

Chas

[Remi]

Welcome to TTF Winston.

Huge step coming man. Wishing all the best on this new journey. You'll find TTF one big family, the support will be here if you need.

Remi

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Winston811

Welcome to TTF. Just by comming here, it shows that you do realize that you have a problem that you want out of your life. In fighting this addiction with Porn, we need all the support and Encouragement that we can get. And that is what we will try to give you.
I like what you said
I have always thought that with enough simple will power I will be able to overcome this thing. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt. One thing is for sure though, it never lasts. I now know that I cant do this by simply wanting it, I have to act on it, set myself a plan, talk to people who will encourage me, and actually do more that wishing it away.

No willpower alone will help you beat this Monster that has come in to your life. This beast has already taken control over your life, So it is time for YOU to get that control back, so you can defeat the Monster, and get rid of it forever. The road we need to travel on to get us the Recovery that we need, is not an easy road to be on. There are so many Bumps, and Potholes that we can and will hit along the way that may make us slip off the road we are on. But the further we travel on this road, the smoother it may become for us.

Since this addiction is a sneaky one, WE need to make so many changes in our lives to not allow it to be with us anymore. Porn can sneak up on us at any given time or place. No matter what we do in our everyday life, triggers will always be there. A TV show, A billboard, A picture in a magazine, or a beautiful women walking down the street, can cause a trigger that can make us slip. We need to change our thinking on so many things.

So your next step that you need to take, is to start seeing what it is in your life that makes you too run to porn to get that fix. When you can Identify these areas, then you can make those changes that you need to make. Yes this road is long and tough, But if you are so determined to rid yourself from Porn, you can come out a very strong WINNER.

I wish you the best of luck in your recovery. WE can not cure you here, but we can give you as much support that we can

[Winston811]

Thanks to everyone`s posts today. Today I made 5 days #:-s And here`s to 6 tommorrow.

Laters,

W

[IN NEED OF HELP]

=D> Great job my friend. Let's keep it going

[Yechezkel]

Thanks to everyone`s posts today. Today I made 5 days #:-s And here`s to 6 tommorrow.

Laters,

W

Great job on the 5 days! now keep posting and let's recover together!