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[BeingThere]

New here but not to recovery. Was a porn addict for 12 years. Coming up on 3 years sober and in recovery in May. I'm here mainly to continue my recovery, learn, and provide support. Coming over from NP Support but still active over there.

It's been a very interesting and difficult journey, but it was worth it.

-Mike

[Crisodian]

BT,
Welcome to TTF! Glad you decided to come and join us. I am the SO of a PA in recovery since September 2009.

We have a few members who have also achieved years of recovery. Foolish Mind and Daniel both immediately come to mind.

Good luck on your journey.

Find peace,
~C~

[BeingThere]

Thanks for the welcome Crisodian. I admire people that can take this painful journey together. I know that sobriety doesn't solve all problems and that porn addiction isn't the source of all evil. For me, it was more of a symptom than a cause.

I look forward to continued recovery.

-Mike

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Mike

Welcome to TTF. So great that you have come here to continue your recovery. Going on 3 years of being sober, that is super. It shows that you have a wonderful program in your life to rid yourself of this.

Again I am glad that you are here, and I am sure that all of us here will learn a great deal from you, with what you share with us.

Keep up the great work in your recovery

[TooSensitive]

Welcome to TTF, Mike. It's great to see you here! But I must tell you, there was some anxiety when I saw the word "Test" in the subject line...before I realized the thread was yours, I thought they were having the same problems here, as NP was! Did you do that on purpose to be funny?!

[rouby]

Mike,

I am really glad to see you here as I think you have so much to offer those of us still trying to figure things out.

I think you will like it here, even if you continue being active at NP, which I would assume with your support there that you would.

Looking forward to more of your thoughts.

[BeingThere]

Thank you to Gerald, TooSensitive, and rouby. I'm still getting used to the forum but it's nice.

No, TooSensitive, I didn't do that on purpose LOL! I had some trouble making my first post and thought I would just try a test post. It took and here I am. o:-) I recognize the need for continued recovery and fresh viewpoints. I'm glad you have found this place too.

rouby, I'm so glad to see you still on this journey. I wish I had the answers for everyone. All I can say is what I did. And I probably did some of it "wrong". But I can keep throwing encouragement in everyone's direction. You are very sincere and I know that one day this will be history in your life. I do know that.

My posts today have seemed rather somber, a bit out of character for me lately. They're not really intended that way. I think it's partly me trying to introduce myself here. That means I have to recap what appears to be many of the dark parts of my life. But that is only for contrast, as I have learned.

I find it difficult to express at times, but I really do love life. I'm far from flawless but this has been a wonderful journey for me. And it as left me wishing the same for others.

-Mike

[TooSensitive]

BT, I believe in the concepts of grief, which happens whenever there is change of any kind. I have been feeling many emotions these past few days which seem to have surfaced when I started coming here. I feel I am grieving to some degree about NP, even though it is still there, and even though this site is so wonderful. Change is still involved regardless. Perhaps you are grieving too, and that is what is playing into your mood. That is not a bad thing, it just could be part of the transition over to something new. Grief can surround even positive change, as I understand it. I'm sure it will pass sooner than later.

I'm sure it also has to do with the rehashing of the "dark parts" of our lives, too. Coming here has felt the same for me as starting out with a new therapist, in many ways! But I am enjoying it nonetheless. I am still posting over at NP, too, when I can. I think I will keep visiting both sites, for they each have something to offer.

You have so much to offer to others. I think everyone does, actually, in one way or another. I'm glad you are here to give your input and support to others who may not yet have traveled as far as you in their journeys. Giving back helps not only the person on the receiving end, but also the person who is doing the giving as well. Even though the intent is to help another, we still end up helping ourselves in the process.

[1dayatatime]

Hey, BT. Welcome to TTF.

[BeingThere]

TooSensitive, thank you for your kindness. I think you're right about rehashing the dark parts. It's like stirring the ashes and pouring more water on them to make sure every ember is out.

I came here in part to get fresh perspectives. That always raises the stress levels a bit and shifts our perception point. That is what I need right now. It's like taking on a new persona, though I'm not really all that different here. Trying to relax and pretend this is all new to me.

Thanks for the welcome 1Day. Good to see you here too. It's a wonderful journey.