Hi!

[Phil413]

Hi, everyone.

I'm new here, but I've been in recovery for about six weeks. The board where I used to post was having major technical problems, and I didn't think I could risk essentially "going it alone" again. So here I am! I'm looking forward to getting to know you.

First, I'll tell you a little about myself. I've indulged in MB for about 35 years, almost daily for most of that time. I've used P off and on since my teen years, but in recent years, thanks to the Internet and easy availability, that use has become much more frequent.

For most of my life I honestly didn't know that I was doing something harmful, and, not being a spiritual person, the question of whether it was right or wrong didn't even enter into my thinking. It felt good, so why not? Then I converted to Christianity, specifically Catholicism, and I learned that these things were wrong, and they were harmful, not only to me but to those around me, too. So I stopped. For awhile. Little did I know the strength of the beast I'd befriended, or the persistence of the lies I'd internalized. Try as I might, I kept slipping back into its grasp.

In the past I've been able to stay clean for a week or so without too much difficulty, but going it alone never worked for long. I've had much better success since I've been keeping a journal (which I'll move over to here so I have a record all in one place). I'm now on day 47 and I pray that I never go back!

Phil

[Crisodian]

Phil,
Welcome to TTF and congratulations on your continued success so far! I am the SO of a PA who has been in recovery and relapse free since September 2009.

I encourage you to read in the Recovery Journals section and start your own journal to share your journey with the other's here who are in recovery.

Find a path to peace,
~C~

[Phil413]

Thanks, Crisodian, it's nice to be here!

Phil

[Cupcakemomma]

Welcome Phil! Sorry your other board went down, but we are always happy to hear new voices :)

[Phil413]

Thanks, cupcakemomma! I'm glad to be joining you, and I look forward to getting to know everyone.

Phil

[Misty_77]

Hiii! Welcome to TTF. Sorry you have the need to be here, BUT, glad you could join us.

[Borrowed Hope]

Phil,

God bless you on your journey. It's a long road but your faith and the people on this site will help guide you. Jesus/God will always be there for you to help you when you feel like you're weak. Put your strength in them and you can achieve anything you wish. :) God bless.

BH

[Phil413]

Hiii! Welcome to TTF. Sorry you have the need to be here, BUT, glad you could join us.

Thanks, Misty. I appreciate the welcome.

Phil

[Phil413]

Phil,

God bless you on your journey. It's a long road but your faith and the people on this site will help guide you. Jesus/God will always be there for you to help you when you feel like you're weak. Put your strength in them and you can achieve anything you wish. :) God bless.

BH

Thanks very much, Borrowed Hope. I put all my hope in Christ, because his strength is made perfect in my weakness.

Phil

[Misty-Eyed Matthew]

You have found a great place to be for your recovery. The people on here are very friendly & supportive to aid you in recovery. Congrats on the 6 weeks being P-free! That is great to hear, I hope you can continue to be strong in your healing. I have been here not even a month & feel like I've come a long way in such a short time. I pray the same thing for you. This site is a wonderful place to be if you have to be here. May GOD bless you & keep you.