I'm another casualty of casual insanity.

[Twilight]

Hello everyone, dears! Let me explain my situation please. I'm 22 years old. The point is that my parents weren't watchful when they were young and when I was just a toddler.

Why am I saying like that?

Like every infant I was quite curious and once sad situation happened. During one night I heard that my parents watch the TV (door was closed). As I said I was very curious and that situation wasn't an exception. This boiled down to my watching through the hole of the door on what they are watching on the TV. They were watching disgusting P of course, together! Could you imagine what happened in that moment in my infant brain? I know you could. It leads to PA till now.

I have a deep desire to get rid of that uncleaness within me so I've studied almost all articles on that site. I strive to apply the councels given by this site as well. What is my next step?

Please help me, dears! I know you can. I'm ready to change.

P.S. I've never had sex. I'm a virgin actually and I proud of it. But I really love one girl and I don't want to hurt her so I want to get rid of my addiction before I'll tell her everything I think about her...

[2frustrated]

What a horrible way to be exposed to p! Ingrained since childhood. Follow the steps on this site. It works. (Btw, what's with "dears"?)

[Twilight]

Sorry, can't understand the sense of ur question. :-)

BTW, it is of interest - I've noticed that when I not getting enough sleep it is easier to be devoured by P and vice versa.

[rosie]

lol @ dears.

Welcome, I am new too. Hope you get something positive from the site. I have found reading over the journals and other posts very helpful :)

Good luck.

[Twilight]

Thx, I'll try to do my best. :-)