Lost in P

[lost_one]

Ok, firstly this feel weird.. I thought I will never discuss this issue with anyone.. it seems like I just did.. and feels good.. but this recovery will require much much more..

8th day of being sober..

[IN NEED OF HELP]

lost_one

How you doing?

first let me say, it was good to see your post. never feel bad about speaking your heart out here. you are with friends.. and everyone that are here, are here for the same reason. so keep the post up. you encourage all of us who are struggling. GOOD JOB ON 8 DAYS FREE. i am on my 7th day. and i feel great. if it wasn't for this site, i do not know where i would be. i also am a new member. please keep coming back. will be looking for your next post

[lost_one]

hi.. still sober.. 9 days..

I don't know why but waiting for the very moment i do it again.. i want to know whether i was in my control or was it p controlling me? I agree with you ..In Need of Help.. this site has helped me too that i was able to identify this sick problem.. just hoping not to do it again.. but.. I'm just lost.. its like i didn't know myself before and suddenly somebody yelling at me that you are crazy.. not normal.. out of sane society.. which I agree with and is almost true but deep down inside it really feels sick.. :(

[sick&tired]

Lost one,

I never thought I would be able to discuss my problems either but one day I stumbled on this site after acting out and feeling really bad about myself. I knew I had to change. My family didn't know of my struggles but I was just sick and tired of feeling like a creep and a liar. This addiction seems to be different than most because there is a layer of embarrassment and shame and, if you're like me, you just don't feel like you can talk to anyone about it. This is a great site and one that you can really open up to. The responses and motivation people give are amazing. Congrats on 8 or 9 days clean. I am on day 23 and feel great. Nothing beats being in control of your life!