Hi, I'm Agoraphobic with a porn addiction

[oceanofnoise]

I've been struggling with masturbation for months now, Ive been doing it for years, its beginning to afect me physically, it looks like sexual exhaustion. Every week I vow to stop looking at porn, I last for about 5-7 days, then I break and masturbate like 4 times in one day. One hindrance for me is the fact that I struggle with agoraphobia, I'm housebound, I'm on the computer all day, everyday. Today is another day 1 for me, promising myself that I will finally stop, Ive lost all confidence in myself and I'm just waiting for me to break down again and do it again. This is very frustrating for me :/

[FoolishMind]

Hi Oceanofnoise, and welcome to the site. With your agoraphobia condition that must be hard, as probably the computer is your only outlet. But as you rightly say continuing like this will really effect you in many ways.

Its clear that this problem has been bothering you for some time, and you seem to be stuck in this cycle where you make a promise to yourself only to fall again, and then you feel low about yourself, and so pick yourself up and search for you high the only way you know how. Its crap isnt it!

Without knowing much more, i.e. age, do you work, student etc, it is a little difficult, but what you really need to do is try and incorporate a routine into your life, and set up barriers where temptation hangs. For example you can put a filter on your computer which will block adult websites and any triggering material, you can invest in yourself by taking up some excercise and focus on a goal, or challenge yourself to complete a new computer game, cook. While it may seem a chore initially, what you are trying to do is search for that high, that feel good feeling in a different way, which I can assure you is most definatley acheiveable.

Anyway, if you havent already, do have a good look around this site, as there is a wealth of information, and do start a journal so other members can follow your journey, but first you must make a clear stratgey as to how you are going to take on this challenge of being P free.

Wishing you the best of success for all your goals.

FM

[boris]

Welcome oceanofnoise,
You've come to a good site for help. first of all, you're not alone. All of us here want the same thing you do, namely to rid ourselves of P/Mb addiction and get our lives back. I realize your agoraphobia presents its own difficulties in fighting this addiction, but it isn't insurmountable. The fact that you have come here show you have a willing spirit.

FM has pretty much said it all. You are in a unique situation, being house bound. Some folks here attend Sex Addicts Anonymous meetings over the phone. Maybe this will be of help to you, if your circumstances allow for it.

Wishing you the best,
boris

[theotheri]

Yo Ocean! What up brother?

Kick that agoraphobia first and I bet the MB problem will subside. Anything in moderation my friend. :D

Do you practice yoga at all? It's very helpful at calming the mind and spirit.

I've been struggling with masturbation for months now, Ive been doing it for years, its beginning to afect me physically, it looks like sexual exhaustion. Every week I vow to stop looking at porn, I last for about 5-7 days, then I break and masturbate like 4 times in one day. One hindrance for me is the fact that I struggle with agoraphobia, I'm housebound, I'm on the computer all day, everyday. Today is another day 1 for me, promising myself that I will finally stop, Ive lost all confidence in myself and I'm just waiting for me to break down again and do it again. This is very frustrating for me :/

[2frustrated]

Ocean,

Venturing out to this online community is a big accomplishment for you. Stick with it, no matter what ups and downs may come. It is scary to leave the home. It must also be scary to put yourself, with your vulnerabilities, out there for an online community to see. Yet you did it, and that must be a good feeling for you to have done that.

You will find here a consistent and warm support system done by people who really care about you. That's what amazes me so much about this site: people who never met me care about me so much. For me, that has been the impetus for me to overcome p more than anything else. Take advantage of this loving community, and read everything people have to say to you. They mean it, they've been there, and they care about you.

I was agoraphobic for a period of my life. Don't worry, I'm not going to ask you to go march in the Thanksgiving parade or something like that. I know that even looking out the window can be scary. All I want to say for now is, know this: no matter how severe and overwhelming your anxiety feels right now, it will pass, you will feel better, and you will be happy. That is a promise.