Heavy Sigh

[Sarah]

Hello Everyone
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I have recently found out about my husband's PA. At first, I was in denial. I became angry and told him that he needs to leave. In the past week, I have hacked his accounts and logged in to various sites he visited so that I can change his passwords or inactivate membershipsIt was sobering. Now I am so sad. I don't want to end our marriage. I am glad to find this site. I hope this helps.

[NewHope10]

Hi Sarah. I'm glad you found this site too, and sorry for the reasons you have found TTF. I just joined almost two weeks ago - and it is a safe place to vent, ask questions, and learn. One of the things that I find is really important to me is to know that I am not alone.

So Sarah...I won't be the only one to tell you - that you are not alone.

I've read through the SO journals and have started one myself. I've never kept a journal before and I am here to tell you that it really does help me. Its a good tool to get the things that are swirling around in my head...out of my head and into my journal. Reading the other SO journals helps as well.

So...we encourage you to read the journals and perhaps start one of your own.

You have found a safe place to be.

>:D<

[JenMac]

Hi Sarah!
I am glad you found your way here to TTF! I am sorry for your situation and hope you will feel less alone by visiting here. The support you will receive here will assist you greatly as you move along in your healing and recovery from this sad place in your life.
I have been a member of TTF for a few months now since I too discovered my H's P use in our home. It has been an emotional and difficult journey since then but we have both joined this site and are moving ahead together in hopes of rebuilding our relationship and connection in a positive way.
We have been married for 30+ years and the discovery rocked my world to the core. The steps my H has taken to show committment to heal and recover from this addiction has enabled me to be able to support him and to work towards recovery myself from the emotional upheaval of this betrayal.
For myself, I set my boundaries very early on. I decided I could not live with P in my life and told my H that. I have been honest and upfront about how I feel and how this has affected me. I wrote a letter about how his use of P affected me and made me feel. We read things on the internet about Paddiction and ordered books on the subject too.
It took some time for my H to come to terms that he did in fact have a P addiction and to take steps to recover. It is a process.
I hope you will start a journal in the SO journal section. I find that to be a major part of my healing. I have always felt more able to organize my thoughts and to let them go when I write them down. I hope this will help you as well.
All the best Sarah! You are definitely in the right place!
Jenn