The start of a new healthy life~

[TWINN222]

Hello everyone and thank you all for offering a place where i can feel accepted and encouraged.
I have been a recovering Alcoholic for the past 8 months and feel that yesterday my higher power was speaking to me about my other demon, my other addiction...pornography. This has been an addiction that has been in my life since i was a teen and it has affected my life deeply and profoundly. Yesterday many situations were laid before me which led to the deep realization that it was time to look into the addiction that has kept me from a fulfilling and satisfying emotional and sexual life with my partner of 24 years. Yesterday, after the admittance that i needed to work on this, i was filled with a feeling of sadness and melancholy. I knew that to some point it was saying goodbye to something that i felt had sustained me and comforted me for so many years. But then i thought of Alcohol. Didn't it feel just the same way? And didn't i need to work through those feelings to get to a place of honest recovery? So today, i feel calmer and more focused. It brought a tear to my eye to enter in Sept. 16, 2010 into the calculator...another beginning.

[mell]

Thanks Twinn,

Welcome to TTF!

Comforting......I know what you mean.

You are in a good place. It sounds like you know about recovery and what is necessary. The recovery journals here are amazing.

Best wishes on your recovery.

-Mell

[TWINN222]

Thank you for the welcome~ This is a fantanstic site and i appreciate that the addiciton is taken seriously. I have the weekend coming and i'm sure i will be here for strength. For about 5 minutes today i started to feel a strong urge to try to look at a person's private page of pictures and stopped myself before i was overwhelmed. man~ this feeling is tough...i'm feeling very "neutral" in my emotion today. no high, no low....just....I've read my meditations this morning and i'm very glad to be able to come here...just seeing the logo and page help me re-focus. I hope that everyone here is having a positive day and staying strong! T.GI.F.