intro to ttf

[maximillian90]

Hello all,

I guess I started watching P when i was around 13. Never thought of it as an addiction until I got involved with my church around 17. Then, when I started trying to quit, I knew I had a problem. Didn't really realize it was a true addiction until recently though.
I'm really involved with a campus ministry, and also just don't want to let something like P rule my life. I wanna beat it! I can't handle the guilt I feel afterward and just the endless cycle that has me trapped. I can't count how many times I have said "never again" after watching and MB to P. I've been reading a bunch of posts on here, and one thing that keeps coming up is taking the fight one day at a time. I'm gonna give it and this website a try!

[Daniel]

I'm glad you're here max90, and welcome to TTF.

We can all relate to the spin-wash cycles of swearing it off for the millionth time, possibly making some deals with God in the process, or pulling up promises we'll never keep, etc., so you are not alone in that regard.

And the war is very win-able. That's the good news.

It will be very hard. And that's the good news. If anything is really easy to get it probably isn't worth having.

A little more seriously, the battle to win your mind back from P will require extreme diligence and vigilance.

1. Start your own journal and begin to describe your journey
2. Read around the site and educate/familiarize yourself
3. Take some hard immediate action to change-up the circumstances where you used to fail
4. If possible tell someone you are close to. This may seem scary if you haven't done it yet but I can tell you from experience it will provide a huge boost to your recovery.

All the best to you,

Daniel