Hello from a young adult with no self control

[We_Are_The_Fire]

Hi, I'm a 20 y/o student with a serious M and PA problem. As in, I have tested myself and I cannot go without either for a maximum of 3 days. Ever.
This is exasperated by the fact that:
a) I've never had a girlfriend
b) I'm a virgin.

My first encounter with internet porn was at the age of 11, and like a shadow it has never left me since.
I figure that I have better things to do in life than to **** myself everyday, hours on end. Even worse, it has already affected my degree/major.
So my plan is to:
i) Write a short message in a journal/blog everyday (does that feature exist on this site?), to remind me not to look at P.
ii) To establish Sunday as my M day (wouldn't want to wet the sheets :P)

In the past years I've tried so many times to refrain myself but it never worked. Hopefully this site and community will be of massive help =).
But ultimately, it all comes down to me.

[Benedict]

You can definitely start a journal here. Go to the Forums and find the Recovery Journals Forum. Simply start a new thread there and add to it every day. Its a great way to stay committed, to record your feelings and struggles. And if you relapse, to identify the patterns.

Read the stuff on the site about strategies for getting started. I think its incredibly helpful to write a list of all the reasons you want to quit, and all the things you will do instead, and the benefits it will bring.

Another important step is to think through what are the triggers for P use, and develop strategies to deal with those. Post the strategies in your journal, and refine or revise them from time to time as you learn more about the triggers and what works and does not work for you.

Other key actions are to dump your stash, cancel your memberships, and do something to change your internet access. Eg. put the computer in a public place, or install a filter like K9.

Good luck. You should get lots of helpful information, advice, support here.

[We_Are_The_Fire]

Thanks for the timely response, I will definitely start a journal and install that software. =)

[StarPuppy]

Hi and welcome, Firstly a warm welcome to TTF where its place where love and scoldings are in abundance here.we are like a family if only you want to stay clean :)

Firstly, follow what Benedict says get K9 asap and a buddy to keep your k9 password so that you do not have easy access to disable it.

I would like you to start a journal, it can be a journal of fighting P and your daily life.

I await your journal soon :)

[We_Are_The_Fire]

daww I feel all warm and fuzzy now =D
That K9 software is really useful, and hopefully my journal will keep me on track =)

[FoolishMind]

Awwwww Dont you just love that warm and fuzzy feeling! when I come here I actually wear my snuggly rabbit pyjamas with floppy ears and make little munching sounds as I pick at my popcorn.

Welcome to da wuvvly world wof Froooo da frame

FM

[StarPuppy]

*takes out shotgun and points it at the mutated monkey rabbit thing* eat dust wabbit! :D

[FoolishMind]

Mutated monkey rabbit thing dusts himself off and thank his bullet proof vest, then picks up chainsaw and slices the hamster mousy gerbilly thing "hav a swice of my pie rat"

[Crisodian]

Animal violence!! Nooooooo

:(

[We_Are_The_Fire]

Gee I wish I had rabbit pjs :^(