Getting Started; reclaming my life

[maggie]

Congrats HumanB,

Although you have made great progress in your goal to become p free, I can't give a totally encouraging response to your post because of the fantasizing & mb.
I'm pretty sure that I've read postings here that those behaviors are a feeder of and a partner to the addiction.

The fact that you are on this site, reading about the effects of PA and now tracking and gaining control of your actions, shows that you are highly motivated to win. And you will.

I've been impressed how you have made the link between depression and addiction and also how you have noticed that you are more involved and connected now with females, than when they were simply airbrused, fantasy images.

Real people, especially women, are definitely more challenging than the fictional people posing in the media! You are sheltered from their complaints, their needs, their mood swings and a myriad of other human traits!

But, the flip side of that is that real women can give you real love and comfort to support you in bad times and real companionship to enjoy the adventures of life.

You are perceptive and you have already listed many important behavioral differences you see when you are directly involved in living and avoiding the isolation caused by p. Keep going...