Hello new member here

[jd0123]

Found this yesterday and decided to join. im 40. had this problem for decades. it has gotten worse through the years.

I will try to post more details about myself and my porn problem in the future. i still have a lot of shame. i see that we all have the same general problem but mine has moved to on occasion illegal porn. i am sickened by this and dont want to go into details just yet.

i am in a 12 step program right now (AA). i have talked about the problem with someone else in a honest way just yesterday and feel this has helped and a burden has been lifted. i do think i need more help from a professional or someone who shares my experience. i have 4 days. my dream is to recover and maybe help someone who has fallen in this regard as far as i have. but first things first, one day at a time for me anyways.

i think a journal here will help and plan to make one. good luck to all of you.

[fgd135]

Hello jd123. Your posting got my attention due to your age, I'm much older, and how this has affected your life, and the occasional dip into very questionable material. My suggestion is to visit here often, to read or comment, but just stay active with it. This is a heck of a struggle for all of us. It sort of puts to shame the old adage we all grew up with, "pull yourself up by the bootstraps." This implies that one doesn't need assistance from others. Ya, that cultural mindset has only affected a few hundred million people, especially in Western society. OK, that went a bit off tangent. Again welcome and best of luck - and effort.

[statler]

jd,

I know how you feel. When my wife read me the list of sites I'd been on (we'd installed Content Barrier on my laptop, which in my addiction I'd somehow forgotten about), I was so ashamed. Maybe not illegal but certainly borderline. I don't think I have ever felt so worthless in my entire life as at that moment. But that is what snapped me out of the loop I'd been in. I could go months without P but I never actually faced the problems that I think led to it.

It takes some major league courage to face what you're facing, but you CAN do this. And this place and these people are absolute godsends. We're with ya, man!