Intro

[MattyManATL]

Hello all........

Just signed up for this today and hoping to provide some support to those suffering from this horrible addiction. I was an active PA for 10 years and it costed me a marriage and took away alot of my self confidence and happiness that I am now trying to regain after being sober for several months now. I say I was an "active" addict because I think it will always be something you have to deal with in your life. The best 2 steps I ever took in working to overcome my addiction was getting rid of internet at home and starting a vigorous workout program that has replaced my time staring at porn.

Not every day is easier but overall I am happier as a person and I am feeling that confidence I once had slowly but surely coming back. I don't think you can just expect 10+/- years of destructive behavior to just dissapear and you are just like new. I am comitted though and I will never go back. I am also very fortunate to have a GF that supports me too.

To all of you out there, I am here if anyone ever just wnats to talk or share some thoughts. Be strong and let go of this terrible addiction.

Regards

Matt

[Daniel]

Way to go MMATL!

Thank you for sharing your success story, it's a great help to many of those here, particularly those in the stage of 'I-just-woke-up-to-this-and-I-can't-find-the-exit' or those who still struggle through regular or semi-regular relapse.

It's a tough thing, but it's great to see folks who are winning and especially your offer to help others if they're interested..

Welcome to TTF.

Daniel

[dave42]

I agree with Daniel, it's great to see someone here who starts with sharing his success story! I'm sorry about your first marriage and the problem with self-confidence, but the way you have turned to exercise as another way to spend time is inspirational. Also, really liked your thoughts on "active" addict and thinking about our addiction as a life-long issue. Also, the point that you can't overcome 10 years in some sort of easy, straightforward way makes a lot of sense. Glad you have a supportive gf -- that seems like a very good sign. Good luck to you and hope you'll stick around and contribute on a regular basis. Thanks!

[Robert E.]

Matt,
Its great to have you on the site!! I hope to get some support from you and learn some more about you. You know just today I did my vigorous workout. Made me so tired all I want to do now is study lol. Im so glad your recovering and have become another person to support all of us. Hope to hear more about you. Good luck to you and your girlfriend. God bless!!

[jejunum]

I'm back after about 2 months away. I am off the bandwagon again. I seem to be able to last about a week and I am back at the stuff again. Celibacy sucks and I link up with the stuff to satisfy that need(?).

I felt really good When I got off the stuff in early August but something a jerk at work said seemed to shock my self reserve and ...

Now I need to start over.

[Robert E.]

What is going on exactly? So its that strong of a feeling huh? Its a feeling of having no girl around so u fufill it with P? Man really just stay as busy as possible and throw away all the magazines. Also the advice I have been given is to use a filter. Give someone else the password so you could stay away. Read, work out, stay away from computers. Unless you have a class to take online or some research to do. Do your best to stay away. Man im here to help you out. Be strong. I will talk to you later brother. God bless.