hello and introduction

[terryb]

My name is Terry, I’m 43, have two master’s degrees, and am addicted to internet porn. I just recently lost my job, a professional management job with a county government, to it after getting caught at work accessing porn. While I was terribly bored and very unhappy with my job, I obviously did not want this to happen. I’ve finally hit bottom after wasting so much time, so much money, and so many bad decisions. I call my addiction “the demon”. I surrender. I have to get my life together as I feel 2009 will be my last chance. I have to make good decisions from here on out. How do you search for a job with this on your record? I’d really like to know. My work history up to this is very good and those who don’t know what happened would certainly give me good recommendations. Even one who knows said he would still give me a recommendation.

My past has seen me visit a prostitute in Nevada when I was in Reno at a conference, have sex with a woman I met over the web, commit acts of voyeurism including videotaping teen girls at outdoor events and football games, and run up a big credit card bill with all the porn memberships I’ve had, including those Russian/Ukrainian young girl sites. I’ve even tried to meet other men for oral sex. I surrender. This job loss has to be the last straw.

I’ve met with my pastor, who has recommended a counselor for me to contact, which I will do next Monday.

How do I put my work life back together? I am getting back involved with my church and will get into therapy for good this time. I hope this site will help me start to rebuild my life. I have so much work to do.

It’s good to meet all of you.