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Well, it's been several months since I've logged on to the website. Things have only been a bit better but still trying to accomplish this under less than desirable conditions. I need to be more active during the day and not get into this track. It's a real struggle and I now have more understanding of people with other types of addiction. I plan on logging in on a more frequent schedule and to read and respond to members observations. Thanks to all.

Hello to all again. My path to freedom has been sidetracked a few times, but considering the fact that I'm home all day alone, I figure I'm doing much better than I thought. I do need to get a filter on my computer as the options of never being alone or in a private room are not options. I live alone in a spacious studio. My therapist, who told me about this website, commented that technically, I'm not a virgin, as I did have both types of intercourse, very briefly years ago. Nothing real spectacular in this message but did want to check in and make sure I am still in the process.

It has been a while since I logged on to this site. I'm the 53 year old virgin who has allowed this P addiction and its attendant consequences to consume my sexual self. To put it simply, the P addiction has dealt me the ultimate tragic ending to a hopeful relationship in the last few weeks. My addiction and self abuse, physically and mentally, desensitized my emotions and physicality to a beautiful woman, as I was hesitant and/or unable to make intimate contact with her. I know I'll get over this, but this is the final episode and the tragic finale to this addiction. I am hoping and trying to not go the sites for the next couple weeks, and I'll be away from all computers for another two weeks after that. I'm going to have my computer consultant install a filter while I'm gone and the password will only be with him. I will instruct him never to give it to me. I'm not computer savvy enough to get around this so I should be safe. I'm marking the days down on a calendar for a couple more weeks and will continue to glance at it as it's on the wall directly across from my computer. I hope this assists me in achieving true freedom and enables me to do the right thing. Wish me luck.