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AirKeep,
I have read a lot of your postings. Some of them have made me cry.... which being that I have kind of shut down emotionally is good.
I am an SO . We have been married for almost 16 yrs. ( anniversary this month) ..... 3 kids...
Reading your story on how you "lost it all " to this addiction SCARES me to death!!
I wish that I could pick up this CROSS and carry it for a while for my husband......... or maybe for myself.... AS YOU CAN IMAGINE trusting IS A real ISSUE.....it has been a heavy load as an SO... and through the PA postings .... yours and others ..... I feel I have begun to get a small GLIMPSE of the PA's struggles.... communication is a real problem for US!! On many different levels.... not just P. My husband doesn't open up about his inner turmoil, pain ...... and tries to do it all on his own....... leaving me in the dark.... adding to my FEAR and pushing him back to P...
I guess I just wanted to let you know that your postings have somehow helped me and 3 weeks ago I was ready to walk out the door..... Divorce ....but I am still here and WE are TRYING!!
I wish there was something I could do to help you in return.
Best wishes to you!
BF