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[Life-lies-trust]

Well I survived today. Hard part was I had to take his first class of the day. They wanted questions answered. I told them "No one is telling me anything and I will not answer questions." I feel totally drained now but I still have work to finish.

K9 says he behaved today. Yes I check as soon as I got home. Did not have time at school (Work).

[WifeOfNewLifeMan]

LLT,

You said
"The line in my head is "He is finding someone better and will leave. I'm not worth loving, dad was right women are not worth the same as anyone else." I know this is wrong but sometimes it just overwhelms me."

I know its hard when you were told often enough and young enough that you are just not good enough. But get that out of your head, missy!

(DISCLAIMER: This paragraph starts out with sarcasm) I am continuously amazed at the amount of completely unworthwhile, unattractive, troll like women of all shapes sizes and colors who have no personalities and few redeeming qualities who are on this site. Yet they are all able to somehow captivate these wonderful, godlike, non-balding, non-paunchy, completely reasonable, sweet, yet strong, intelligent adonises. The only problem is that these adonises have a little P addiction. Otherwise they are perfect, and us unworthy creatures are so lucky to have them.

OK... I hope you read my disclaimer. He is not finding something better than you. He married you and said he loves you. So, he is finding something else all right, but it has nothing to do with you! You could be Heidi Klum and whoever else all rolled into one amazing barbie doll package, and he would still do what he wants to do until he decides to change. It is him. Not you! Do not give his addiction more power over you by thinking you are at fault here. You may not be perfect, but none of us are. No matter what your imperfections are, they do not give him license to go outside of his marriage.

I hope things get better for you. I can't imagine what its like for you to go to work and face people who are thinking whatever they are thinking. You must be a remarkeably strong woman. Even if you don't think so today. :)

[Life-lies-trust]

Work is teaching Algebra 2 and Trig to high school students. Once I get started with lesson I can forget about me and focus on them. TG for these young adults that I teach. My students do not ask any questions about what is going on. They let me be me and teach them, or as normal students try to find some way out of work ;)

I'm over the beat myself with a bat routine at this point but it does come back at times.

WNLM thank for the sarcasm it made me laugh.

[WifeOfNewLifeMan]

LLT-

When I hear "math" my brain fuzzes and I get a headache. I am glad teaching it helps you focus. If I had to take more math I would have had to start an addiction of my own called, "sleeping in class". Thankfully teens are so self absorbed that even if they wonder what's going on, its not really as interesting as what so and so posted on their facebook status last night. Did you hear.... something completely inconsequential happened and now my life is over... omg! Teens!

You are welcome for the laugh. I am a funny little troll. :)

[Life-lies-trust]

I love math and the patterns. Now writing and english class is worse then the scarry monster under your bed as a kid.

[Crisodian]

(DISCLAIMER: This paragraph starts out with sarcasm) I am continuously amazed at the amount of completely unworthwhile, unattractive, troll like women of all shapes sizes and colors who have no personalities and few redeeming qualities who are on this site. Yet they are all able to somehow captivate these wonderful, godlike, non-balding, non-paunchy, completely reasonable, sweet, yet strong, intelligent adonises. The only problem is that these adonises have a little P addiction. Otherwise they are perfect, and us unworthy creatures are so lucky to have them.

Ok. I have to admit this one made me laugh out loud so hard I choked on my coffee. Priceless, WoNLM. Priceless.

~C~

[Life-lies-trust]

Tomorrow he has a meeting about his job. I'm teriffied that he will be arristed and no one will tell me. This will keep me in knots until I know what happens. I have been having to be the go between for the sub and my H. I just try to keep focused.

[Crisodian]

I'll keep you both in my prayers tonight LLT.

Be strong for you.
~C~

[WifeOfNewLifeMan]

prayers from this direction too.

[Life-lies-trust]

Thank you all for the prayers.

Well he got of lightly by my opinion. 5 day off with pay, 5 days off without pay, Has to stay in counseling (YEA!!!!!!!!), then has to face the questions from students and staff.

This is some relief but I'm waiting till his mother decided that she has to talk to her baby. If you have ever seen the show "Everyone Loves Raymond" his mother is my MOL toned down.