Between Hurt, Hope, Anger and Peace - CaveInimicum's Journal

[CaveInimicum]

Good day everyone :)

I'm extremely grateful to find a community such as TTF.

Indeed an oasis in the middle of porn storm...
that is,
the universe :D


I'm married to a porn addict who's struggling to break his chain, hanging around his soul for more than 8 years now.

In the process I've experienced being lied, fooled, betrayed, tricked, cheated, losing trust, feeling unloved, feeling unworthy, feeling like trash.

...

In the end I realise that it is him who has got the problem, and not necessarily me.

In the end I realise that this is not the end of the world, and either I shall be or not be with him, life goes on.

In the end I realise that all I can do is doing what I believe is best and what I believe is right.

For the sake of no one but myself.

(Yes it is very tempting to retaliate, to go out and have some affairs, but no thank you... I respect myself and shall stay fair for the sake of myself.)


I am still, and have always been the same me, no matter who / what my husband is, and I am the only one who has the right to decide on my self-worth.

I decide to be worthy.



So, thank you dear TTF for letting me vent here.

This is my journey in dealing with my hurt, hope, hate, love, anger and peace

...and may the greatest wisdom wins.

[Little lock]

May the greatest wisdom win indeed. I hope that you find a peace of mind here Cave(Can I call you that?)and get over your hurt soon. Thanks for that note in my profile as well. Me, and the TTF community all love you as well!:)