For me:
+ thinking abt the progress i've made thus far and whether i'd be willing to throw it away just for a moments pleasure
+ willing to throw away the feeling of happiness i've been feeling thus far and fall back wallowing in depression
+Coming to this site and keeping up to date with my journal and checking the sober calculator, watching my sober heartbeats calm me down...
+ just thinking that P & MB is not an option anymore for me to escape to and that i want my freaking life back!
Also theres this book i posted about and i haven really given it a shot.. and i'll let you guys know how it goes if i get it.. Heres the link anyway :
The 'P' Trap