"Forget about it"

[Andy]

Hello,
I have been on and off this site for about a year or so. I finally feel I might be able to sontribute.
What a way to start the new year off. I was finally caught, confessed however you want to call it in Mid-January.
I think it was just a matter of time. I have had this problem since my teens. The fallout with my wife has been painful.
I am no longer able to use the computer at home and have tried to quit this.

Yesterday I don't know if its God talking to me but something said "just forget about it" - not in an Italian accent though lol. Forget about it I never thought that, that was what I need to do right now. Instead of thinking Oh I have this problem and just screwed up my life, and I am a Paddict, something said forget about it. Well when I did this when I was able to "suspend"my thoughts about it and the misery it has brought upon me, I actually started feeling some peace and strength.

I don't know maybe this is to simple.
My life kinda sucks right now and their probably isn't a timeline as to when I will feel better about myself and relationships.
Solitary is what I feel.