Relapse :(

[helpmeplz]

I've Relapsed and I need Help, what should I do so I can get back on track again ?

[rosie]

Not a PA but perhaps you could analyze what things (emotions, stress, tiredness, etc?) lead to you acting out and what you could better do to prevent each step in the process so 'next time' it will be harder? Phil has great ideas in his journal for counteracting temptations by plugging all 'holes' /threats to recovery, I highly recommend you have a read if you haven't.

My theory is, that if you learn a lot from your mistakes, it was not a complete waste or failure, but rather a learning mechanism. The only mistakes that are pointless are the ones you continue to make because you don't change how you do things.

Take care and chin up!

[IN NEED OF HELP]

I've Relapsed and I need Help, what should I do so I can get back on track again ?

The first thing that you should do, is to make sure that you just pick yourself back up, dust yourself off, and get right back into your recovery.
I really like what rosie said:
My theory is, that if you learn a lot from your mistakes, it was not a complete waste or failure, but rather a learning mechanism. The only mistakes that are pointless are the ones you continue to make because you don't change how you do things.

Right now you really need to take a look at what was going on, when you gave in to this addiction. once you see what it was that lead to it, learn from it. It is not the slip, that matters, well it does yes, but it is what you do about it, that really matters, so you don't do it again. if you do not take a look, and learn from it, this will just become a cycle that will continue to happen in your recovery. Perhaps you don't have all the right tools that you need, to fight this addiction. I am a firm believer, that if you have a good recovery plan, and you work in all of the time, there is no reason to give into this addiction.
So take a look at your plans,and if you feel that you need to change them, then do so now, so you can get a strong hold of this addiction.
Write about what was going on in your journal, so you have it right there when you need to take a look at this road you are on with this recovery.

I am encouraged that you came here and told us about it, instead of hiding it because of shame. So get back on track now, and continue to fight this addiction, and get rid of it for good

[edjames71]

For me it's learning my triggers. What triggers you to act out? Is it stress, being alone etc. Once you know what the triggers are use something else to deal with them. For me, I found working out, meditation and started to read as a way to deal with my triggers. I've has 2 issues since starting my recovery and I've been able to handle them pretty well.

[helpmeplz]

Thank you All, this was helpful, still i can't seem to get rid of it no matter how much I stay away, i never thought about giving up, and I always think this is the last time I'm gonna give in, however, I just don't know how I keep slipping, and I'm dead serious about quitting, and I'm honestly trying to learn from my mistakes, but it's all a matter of seconds and I fall !
I'm gonna give it my best shot !
no way I'm giving up, I think my mistake is not really spending a lot of time dealing with my triggers and issues, as much I spend trying not to think about them and be sober !
thanks again :)

[cvanden]

Do you have someone you can call when you feel weak?

[WayFarerNation]

The guilt and shame will go away completely when I confront myself, forgive myself, and then promise myself I won't do it again. This also makes it harder to slip up because I remember how it feels from before.