Keeping up momentum

[JohnnyLan]

Whenever I reach a point of having a few weeks of sobriety under my belt, this nagging doubt that I was ever addicted starts to creep in. I seem to forget the pain and shame of addiction and get prideful. Then I stumble again.

Any thoughts? Any insights? Is this common for others?

[Phil413]

Whenever I reach a point of having a few weeks of sobriety under my belt, this nagging doubt that I was ever addicted starts to creep in. I seem to forget the pain and shame of addiction and get prideful. Then I stumble again.

Any thoughts? Any insights? Is this common for others?

That used to happen to me all the time. It hasn't happened since I've been posting here, though. Maybe the constant exposure to other people who are in the same boat as me reminds me that the boat is real.

Phil

[IN NEED OF HELP]

JohnnyLan
I do know what you are saying. I think when I got my first 30 days in, I had the attitude that this really isn't that hard to beat, so I may have slowed down on my recovery. I never slipped, but I got to the point that I was struggling more in my recovery to stay clean. When I found myself seeing that I was about to give in, I thought, damn, I had this thing beat, but in reality I never did. So I never allow myself to get comfortable at all in my recovery. I think I am at 76 days now, even thou I feel super great about it, I still need to wear my shield, so I dont allow this addiction to creep back in to my heart
I guess it just shows, that I need to be on guard 24 hours a day. We never know when this damn monster is going to try to sneak in on us