coming up on a year.

[boris]

It's been some time since I checked in, and since I'm coming up on one year clean I wanted to express how grateful I am for all of the support you have given me. I first came to TTF on March 23, 2010, a broken man. I really didn't think that I could pull myself out of the depths of self loathing in which I found myself. You have given me a place to recover, and a group of very special people, who share the same struggle.

I realize that no one is immune to the damage p*rn addiction. We are never cured. We all know what is like to cross the line, because we have all done it. We can become celibate, so to speak, but we can never regain the innocence of never having known. But we can still cleanse ourselves of that defilement and live with a clean conscience, and feel good about ourselves.

I feel sadder but wiser. Instead of thinking, "Why would I ever even do that?", I now think, "I know why I never want to go there again."

Just about a year ago I thought I was doing well. I was free and clear. It had been about ten months since I committed to staying clean, and I really wanted to be the guy who stopped once and for all never relapsing. "Mr 1%", so to speak. Well I was wrong.
My new mantra is:
"Consequently, let him that thinks he is standing beware he does not fall.
No temptation has taken you except what is common to men." 1Corithinans 10:12,13

December 19th will mark one complete year, without relapse. I'm scared, but it feels good.

Stay clean,
Boris

[JenMac]

Hi Boris!
So good to hear from you! Congratulations on one year! That is awesome!
I often wonder what has happened to our friends once they leave here, and so it is great that you have come back to let us know you are doing well!
Hope you will stay around for a while and that life is treating you well!
All the best Boris!
Jenn

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Boris

How encouraging it is, to see you so close to one year. you are so right in what you said here my friend. no one is immuned to the damage of this crap. yes most of us, may have crossed that line.

The best thing about this addiction, is when it is no longer in our lives. I also have been a year clean, come this past Thanksgiving weekend. It is a wonderful feeling to have, when for this amount of time, we are not living in the darkness of this addiction.

When I read this, it was a very good reminder in why we need to ALWAYS be on guard against this beast:
My new mantra is:
"Consequently, let him that thinks he is standing beware he does not fall.
No temptation has taken you except what is common to men." 1Corithinans 10:12,13

I love this mantra, and you could have not found a better one to use. You know, I just wanted to stop by and give you congrats on the year, but I ended up rambling here instead. Thank you, for stopping by, and letting us all know how well you are doing in recovery

I know that you may not come around as much as you would like to, but I just also want to remind you, that all of us at TTF, are here for you at anytime. though you may doing just fine in recovery, when you get the feeling that most of us addicts do get, to maybe indulge in the darkness just a little, please come here first, so maybe we can help you

Boris, I am encouraged by this post, and I do thank you for posting it. keep up with the great work that you are doing.

Check in once in a while, even if it is to say you are still doing good

Your fellow addict
Gerald