[dave]

I can't pinpoint where the stress really stems from. I don't have urges or temptations for P but I have the feeling that I need sex with my wife; perhaps I should try some M and see if it helps. I feel a little proud of being clean close to 3 months so to go back to M ???
I had hoped that by living clean my body adjusting to less sex and the tension would decrease. But it just keeps at me !
Perhaps I need to consider medication. I like an evening drink and it takes the edge off but I am aware of the dangers of cross addiction.
My wife and I have been to couselling over the years and things got much better but now the P had become a compulsion - much like your compensation experience.
Today she offered that she is going to see our former counsellor to sort out her reactions to my tension. I am trying to see her decision as a positive doorway for us.
Thanks for your comments.