"I think I need a good stern kick in the nuts" hahah
Sorry, not laughing at your situation, but that struck me as funny. I can only speak for myself here, but I don't think my battle against addiction will ever be "over" As they say, "once a cucumber becomes a pickle, it can never go back". I'm gonna be fighting this for the rest of my life. Not that it won't be easier and less of a fight as time goes on, but I don't think I'll ever really be "cured" of this. Your experience may differ, of course.
As far as your wondering "what's my problem?" I have one idea: I notice you've been a member here for a few weeks, but this appears to be only your second post. I think if you share your thoughts in a journal, or post in threads and interact here, it can give you a lot of help. I'm not trying to judge you or tell you what to do, but its something to think about anyway.
Keep on trying!!!
