[dave]

I am just over 80 days P and M free but I feel very depressed. Things are complicated between my wife and I - we have been married 36 years and we have a good relationship other than sex struggles. Now that I have been clean a good stretch the reality of where we are at sexually is hitting home. She is happy with sex once a week and I feel like a frustrated newly wed. I had hoped that if I stayed clean and gave myself time I would adjust, but I feel sexual tension most of the time.
I may have to return to some M but there is always the fear of a slip back to P.
I know all the good advice - keep busy etc. I have a good social and church life. I exercise. I pray.
It just seems I am a looser who can't live without a lot of sex - and I can't expect this great partner to agree to much more. We are 56 years old
80 days ago I thought I would have adjusted by now !!!
I just want to go hide in a hole and cry.