[Dane]

Huh... This've been a really hard night..
The hardest so far!

I was just going through the tv channels now in the evening, and guess what was
on one channel. A documentary about playboy! I watched it a bit, turned the tv off,
watched a bit etc.. It wasn't P, couse they can't show that on tv, but here in Norway they
don't have to sensour away stuff, so it was not that far from P...

But I didn't MB to it! And when I went to bed, I couldn't think about anything else.
So here I am. Struggeling! Can't get my mind off it..

This documentry was about celebreties posing in the Playboy magazine and everyone
"seemd so happy about it.
They all said stuff like:
"- Playboy have changed my life!"
"- This is the best thing ever happened to me!"
etc...

And that made me doubt the things we've talked about in here. About all the women
that does this without really wanting it. But it is stuff like Playboy I've watched mostly before..


It's hard now. Because I struggle to find any reasons to quit! It feels like it's just a
thing that I like to watch! So why not watch it?
It's like I'd had to quit playing on my guitar (I do that A LOT and LOVE IT)
Why should I quit playing it?

But I'm not doing it today.. I kind of think that I would do it if it wasn't for
this forum. Or I would deffenily have done it. So you guys in here shure helps me alot!
Even I, some times, don't se the reason..

That's all.
Good night and God bless!