[Farmer]

Originally Posted by showmelove

This time around I hardly do any MB and I havn't had an orgasm for close to 6 weeks. I have had ups and downs but in general I have felt better about myself than I've done in a long time. I don't get nervous socially as easy, I stand up for myself much more, I am more positive. I do not know if most of this is because I quit MB but it feels like the effect of quitting p was enlarged by also quitting MB. I don't know if it is going to be possible to go without MB or sx for a very long time but for now it feels good.

SML, like you, I have been abstaining from MB. I think we are at ease socially because we are not carrying any guilt or shame into our conversations. Even though people cannot read minds I always feared being found out, some how, some way. By going without MB, I too feel better physically and mentally. For how long, I don’t know either. I am curious, you say you hardly do any MB and haven’t had an orgasm for 6 weeks, do you mean that you are masturbating and stopping short of orgasm? I ask this only because my ritual was to MB for long periods and stop so I could stay mesmerized and in that zone if you will. I would MB everyday but reach orgasm 15 - 20 times a month. Currently I am abstaining from all MB activity and I think this is why I feel better physically. I was putting myself through a lot of physical abuse with my habit/addiction.

Farmer