[k.rozell]

I'm having trouble pinpointing a reason to quit porn. Then again, I can list reasons why it bugs me that I use it nearly everyday:

- It sucks the energy out of me, making productive work hard to do (if I accomplish much at all after a slip)
- It wastes time in a selfish, unproductive, lame way.
- If not today, then one day, it ALWAYS leads me back to my true problem area: chat rooms.
- For no reason at all, without even being aroused or anything, I'll get bored and just decide to fill my time with porn. I'm not even aroused! I force myself to get aroused and do the act. I guess porn is so ingrained in my system that a day without it is hard to get through, so I make sure I get it in there - even if I'm not in the mood, so to speak.

Okay, so maybe I can find a reason to quit. But those above don't seem to be strong enough as they've been with me for years now. Porn bothers me, for some reason, I'm not quite sure why. Even if I have a productive day anyway, even if I don't waste much time on the stuff, even if I don't go into a chat room - just something about porn bothers me. It feels wrong, or at least, very lonely, stupid, and lame.

Doesn't make it any easier to stop though..