[PAAnon]

In AA they say if you go the bar often enough, you will get drunk.

Is there healthy masturbation? I am only 6 days free of this mind rot and have tried M twice. I remembered thinking how P was so totally attached to the actions and outcome.

Without it, I just felt the physical feelings and trying to go with it.

I still did not like my emotional attitude afterwards, although it was miles above the "afterwards" when using P.

So, I have not relapsed into viewing P before, during or after the MB. I still have no desire for looking at that mind rot and getting back the old feelings of self hatred and being less than and the ensuing bouts of self-pity accompanied with ego-maniacal actions.

I hate to be punny: I will worry about it when it comes up.

I continue to follow a 12-step pattern for recovering from this addiction.

The spiritual approach, rather any religious oriented one, seems to work best for me. I have a conception of my higher power (god) and now that I have stopped this mind rot from entering through my eyes, I am amazed at how quickly any of the residual imagery that was always present and kept me obsessed is pretty much gone. Relieved. Deleted.

If just a religious code or morals and values were able to stop any of my addictions, I would be a devout _______.....

I asked for assistance from a spiritual god. God responded when I was ready to have it happen.

PAAnon.