[Glass_of_water]

Thank you stinger,

I have felt so guilty for not being able to forgive him when I know he is trying and is sorry. Some days everything reminds me of what has happened and it feels like I am going crazy.

Foolishmind, thank you for the time in responding, you were right I did type that message with tears in my eyes and gritted teeth. You are also right that the bad will stick in my memory much more than the good, it is the memory that will be triggered by something on tv, a billboard, a flippant phrase somebody has said, a small action, everything seems to trigger these bad memories.

My husband is trying, and I know he is, today is his day off work and he is leaving the house at the time he drops our son off, spending time out of the house, meeting me for lunch, doing more out of the house things, and only coming back home when he picks our son up. He knows that he can't be in the house alone and whilst there is another person in the house he is ok.

Thank you,