[showmelove]

Hi Vilema,

I just want to say that your post touched me very deeply and I'm really sorry to hear about the suffering you have experienced. I think FoolishMinds advice as always is really good. I just want to say to you that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, there is a way out of the suffering and the self pity that eventually comes with it. Surprisingly for me your post included the strongest triggers that I've experienced since I quit P because you are really good with words and at describing the allure by just a few hints. I guess this means that the part of you that likes P is still alive. Hopefully that can start to change soon.

I try to work with my p addiction (PA) in two ways. One I stay away from it and two I start doing more of the things that I'm afraid of and have been avoiding by using p. That can be trusting people, meeting new people, talking to women etc. I think it can be beneficial to do both at the same time.

Best of luck to you my friend. I have not seen a post here that have touched me more then yours. I wish I could give you a real hug. You are not to blame for all the circumstances that lead you to where you are today, but you have the power to reclaim the self respect, the joy and the courage that a p free life can bring.