Hi! I'm a Norwegian guy so sorry if my english ain't perfect
I have a big problem with porn addiction...
I started looking at porn when I was about 14 years old. It started out with somesex releated shows on tv and porn on the internet. And as you know, internet only gets faster and cheaper. Now I'm 24 years old and happily married!
But still looking at porn...
I have been trying to stop sins I was about 17 (I think). I have told myself;
"-This time, I will make it! I will stop, never more!!!"
500 times I'm shure. But I just can't...
I am a christian and my whife doesn't like me looking at it so I've got reasons to quit.
I think that watching people having sex is WRONG and I almost never look at that!
The thing I "like" to see is just beautiful girls, naked ore almost naked. I love it and I hate that I love it... The thing that makes this really complicated is that I don't think that the porn I'm looking at us wrong, it's just that my whife doesn't llike it. So it's like I'm trying to quit for her sake, and not mine. And that makes it so hard! Qause I want to continue with it! The only bad part is that, when I search for porn, I start out looking at soft pictures that are "okay". But often ends up looking at lesbian porn and stuff. Caouse thats beautiful to, but it's wrong!!
I kept me addiction secret from my whife for many years, and when I decided to tell her she got really really sad. That's the number one reason that she don't want me to look at it now, because I used to lie about it.
I still do it, without telling her. About 3 times a weak, I stay up after she goes to bed to look at porn. I can add that I allways masturbate to it. I was addicted to masturbation when I was a teen, but I got ridd of that! Pjuh...
What can I do? How can I quit doing something I don't wanna quit? (But in the same time, really really do!)
Can you help me please??
This got to be a really long post and I hope you guys read it.