[slave]

Welcome to the place where we all went or are going through the same thing as you! I know the desperation and guilt you feel, (read my journal) it feels like its impossible to stop, but with the Lord nothing is impossible. Now how dedicated are you to really make that happen? How much do you want for this to end? If enough, you will find what you seek, but first you have to make the concrete decision, the battle is unrelentless, but don’t let that discourage you, it gets easier, its just getting over the hump is what’s hard. Have faith, pray and the Lord will help you. Keep a journal on this forum and we will all support you and help you always.