[Justme]

Congats on the 11 days...thats awsome.
I am starting to get the hang of this site. I know i have been sending you abit of stuff. I know there are alot of people on this site but it does feel nice to kind of get to keep in more regular contact with just a few. Plus youre from NZ so that is a good connection for me.
It is my first day today. i have a lot of thoughts going through my head. Alot too have been on the subject of MS. i too believe it is a normal healthy thing to do but like you for me it has always been linked to P mainly. But MS to P wasnt always a sensual feeling cause often I would MS to P when i really wasnt even feeling horney. My best orgasms have actually been with my partner or without P...with just me actually enjoying the feeling of MS instead of my mind being held captive by the P.
I am looking forward to seeing how leaving P behind will affect my desire to MS. I have only recently discovered the link between P and my disability to get an erection and finish during normal sex. I thought I was having impotense issues but while looking at P there never was an issue. This has caused alot of stress for me when ever I am with my girlfriend. So i am looking forward to seeing and noticing any changes that may happen. i do feel like a whole new world could possibly open up. I am at the point where i am just tired of wasting time looking at P and am tired of so looking forward to time alone just so I could watch P.
I have started my own journal this morning as suggested.
Congrats again on your 11 days as far as MS without porn dont get frustrated when you try. MS to porn is about getting off but MS can also be a very sensual experience and rather then just focussisng on getting off just focus on enjoying the sensation of touch etc. This will help you relax and if you let go of the need to have to orgasm you will find yourself enjoying it more. You will also find yourself having orgasms of a different kind , ones where your whole body will tingle and feel good but you wont necessarily come. And that is fine...just enjoy it!
Cheers mate.