[Light]

Today, my girlfriend is out of town, and I ended up looking at P. I kind of went on a binge, and I am full of regret.

I regret doing this, and feel depressed afterwards. After p and mb, I feel tired and sad, mostly about the things that I am looking at. Then, minutes later I feel almost possessed to look at these things again until a lot of time has gone by, and I have nothing to show for it.

I find that I start out with youtube videos, and from there, it just gets worse, and it is just so easy to find this stuff these days.

I wish I could throw out the computer, but the truth is I need it for many different reasons, and it is part of my job. Do you guys have any suggestions?

The pleasure that I get from this is so small and fleeting, and after it is all over I wish I could never do it again. But now that I have slipped, I know it will be that much harder to fight off the temptation next time.

Tomorrow will be day one of freedom, and I will start again...