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I have on and off thought that I had a problem with masturbation and pornography. I try to stop and then get an urge and it overwhelms me and I ALWAYS give into this. Its been like this for about 10 years! Im in my mid 20s and have problems because of this. I have only been able to masturbate and not be able to ejaculate when im in realationship with someone I really care about. This is humiliating and I feel like this situation will never change and that I will never be able to stop being controlled by my porn and mb urges. I also feel like I have to view more and more graphic materical in order to "get my fix". I find myself viewing things I am ashamed to view. I even masturbate in those porn arcades often. Has anyone been in a situation like me and found a way to stop. I cant talk to my friends or family about this and even feel embarrassed to talk to a councelor about this. I feel hopeless and powerless. Can anyone give me some advice?