[Cobalt]

Found one that pretty closely explains my depression. Just swap out the drugs with P or self mutilation. It helps, because there are times I wish I could say this, but the words fail me. Local band, too.

It Don't Matter - Rehab

Sittin in traffic, another day of feeling nothing
Trying to find something, I guess it's back to huffin'
Paint and model glue, oh how I die when I look
At you smilin' lovin' life, and all I know is blue
Rainy days and cold stares, broken love affairs
Everything's beautiful; as long as I ain't there
I guess I wasn't meant to crack a smile. Who cares,
I think I'll go to sleep for a while now

I'm barely livin' in my skin, depression's my only friend
And I don't know where I am heading, tryin' to forget where I've been
And I'm so sick of lying, God please show me that silver lining
Cuz I've heard tale, and I'm not well, l my heads full of hell and
This world's a jail, but

And it don't matter, and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear

And as the pain begins to displace, had it to ear level
With this place, you see it on my face a state of suspended grace
Gradually I erase, and find comfort in the sickest womb
I might be present, but not in the room
To whom it may consume, melting ensembles bleeding chellos running through Bordellos drama
Like Othello hidin' out from Poncharello
Dead off in the Median
Fallin apart like usual, handin' out flyers to my funeral

So they say that life's a play and that all the world's a stage
Then for another part I pray; The show ends the same way everyday
And my heart carries the pain, of a brain I can't explain
Am I insane?
Am I insane?

And it don't matter, and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear

And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
It doesn't really matter now does it

And it don't matter, and I don't care.
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear