[michelle]

I am in a situation where I would like no one to be in and I am sure that I may not be the only one. I am into chemicals and have been doing it since my high school. I recently took a vacation from my job an I attended a rehab. It was going good but a few weeks ago I returned to my old self. Met a few old pals and they had some stuff with them and I just couldn;t resist. I got this feeling of futility ever since and I am scared I might get into this again because sometimes the urge is so strong that I tend to forget about everything else. I need some counsellings but don't want to go through that tailor made stuff of my doctor. This is killing me.