|  first SAA meeting confuses me -
05-22-2008, 06:17 AM
Went to my first SAA meeting tonight - I really respect all the heart wrenching stories but I feel so out of place there. I am not better than anyone there but my experience is so different. No one's problem seemed at all similar to mine.( about 10 in attendance)
I have a relatively good marriage relationship and a strong social circle. Yes P stressed my marriage but we are committed to each other.
My P has had little escalation - just a relentless dirty way for me to cope that has GOT to stop.
I never crossed many bounderies, other than using P and dishonesty with my wife. There is the other obvious double standard that I have lived.
Tonight's group members have some tough experiences and several are struggling with slips.
I am so grateful to have a relatively contained problem and that I can build a P and M free stretch with the supports that I have. My challenges seem small compared to what some of these fellows are facing.
Perhaps this is the lesson God had for me in attending tonight. I will have to read their materials and attend another meeting soon.
Does this sound like a bunch of rationalization ?
Perhaps there are other guys out there who have my type of problem. . . . . |